Aching

Broke a record.

Kept a resolution I had not intended to keep.

- - - - -

I stood in front of the mirror and posed.

I watched every strut closely.

I slipped off my skirt.

I pulled off my top.

I prance around in my lingerie and heels.

I watched every curve closely.

I slipped off my thongs.

I pulled off my bra.

I twirled around in my heels.

I watched every movement closely.

I sat down on my bed and kicked off the shoe.

I lied back and enjoyed the cool air against my bare skin.

I dug my blood red nails into my duvet and pulled it over me.

I close my eyes and shut out the thoughts.

I try to breathe a steady rhythm.

- - - - -

Still celibated.



Still fucking celibated.